Sunday, 22 December 2013

22nd of December

Hi there!

OMG! 2 more daaaaayyys!!!!

Cleaning up, cooking, wrapin presents, singing Christmas songs and decorating the tree! Yep, this post is done then xD

Just kidding. 

  On the 19th we had our school's Christmas Special. Meaning a show. It was rather fun tho. And I found my brothers present which I did buy later.

  School ended on the 20th. We just went to the church and that was it. I was having some quality time with my friends from morning until afternoon. We had some coffee (hot chocolate for me :D) and then went for a small shopping spree. Later on I visited a family friend with my dad and brother. 

  Yesterday I was shopping again. This time with only one friend but that doesn't really matter. I got the present for my mom and after I got home I realized that I don't even gonna give her that thing now because I can't get it ready. But mom, if you are reading this, no worries, you're gonna get a very nice present. 

  I've been sleeping very bad these past days. I don't know what it is. I have been seeing nightmares and I keep waking up multiple times during the night. Not cool. Anyway, what I wanted to say is that maybe for those reasons or just due to the fact that I'm on holiday I've been waking up really late. Which for me is really weird. And then I can't sleep. I was just talking to my best friend Miri, who is in the other side of the Atlantic at the moment, and the told me she woke up yesterday (or something) at seven. I woke up at eleven! WHAAT?!? But you already know what I did today. 

Enjoy December everyone!

Listen to this:
Shakin' Stevens- Merry Christmas Everyone

Wednesday, 18 December 2013

18th of December

Hi there and happy 18th of December!

  This can't really be called a blogmas. I've been really busy.

  So what day did I do last time? Thursday! Jeez...

Okay, I can't remember doing anything particularly interesting or christmassy on Friday. Maybe did some cards? No! I was cleaning, now I remember. But that is nothing too exciting...

  On Saturday we went to my uncle and aunt's place because my uncle had his birthday. I also gave the self-made cards. Not all of them but I gave them to all who were there. Then we just had coffee and tea and cake ofc. It was really nice seeing my family again. 

  On Sunday happened... something. Or was I just home. Naah, can't remember doing anything. 

  Monday was my last real day of school! How cool was that! I was in school from 8.15 to 14.30 and then we had our musical training which wasn't really a training because our teacher had to go to a meeting. So I was home at about four pm or maybe a bit earlier. I quickly needed to do some props (I guess that's what they are called) and ate. I needed to be in a theathre at 18.45 or so. We were going to watch a Romeo and Juliet musical. I rather not tell anything about it, pretty much everyone knows the story. 

  Thursday started with me going to school. I was supposed to be there at eightish in the morning. After our morning assembly we were going to bring a stuff to our stage. Yes, stage. It was the day before our musical! How crazy  was that! We had rehearsals all day and then later on that evening we had dress rehearsal. With all the problems right xD But we made it through. 

  And today, on the 18th of December 2013 we had our two shows! Honestly I think our first one went better than the second... I didn't forget what I needed to do and I did not fall on the stairs (proud of myself!). But they didn't go perfectly but hey, why should it. Makes life more exciting! Our story was that the Pope went missing and a search party were looking for him in different countires. In those countries happened stuff that you'd maybe expect to happen. For instance in Ireland we had St.Parick's Day and in Australia one of the guys was killed by a cactus. Totally normal. Eventually the search party find the Pope in Jamaica but the Pope doesn't want to be a Pope anymore. 
I was part of that search team, a little girl. I had a green skirt on, a yellow t-shirt and pink shoes. So me, right xD While we were in the Netherland I run away from Slenderman who in the end catches me. What a story. I had fun and I hope everyone else had fun too. 

Enjoy December everyone!

Listen to this:
Feliz Navidad- Glee version

Thursday, 12 December 2013

12th of December

Hi there and happy 12th of December!

  I finally have the time to write again. Let's do this post day by day do we'll get this going:)

Nothing too interesting. I was at the dentist. If you remember my post from a while back (50 facts about me) you might know that I do not really like the dentists. I mean the people are nice and all but thinking about someone doing something to my! A check is nice but everything thank you. Luckily everything was fine and they said that it's very good that I take so good care of my teeth. Which is great to hear. So then I went to school. School is never so interesting, I think, so let's just skip this part. 
  Later on I went for a dance class. I tried salsa street a while back and fell in love. It's really cool and I have a lot of fun. My inner dancer is shining there. I think I might do more salsa street now. Salsa, salsa street and zumba. This was the reason I couldn't write anything on Monday. Well, maybe I could've but it would've been nonsense. The dance class was very late and I just didn't feel like doing a post. 

Tuesday was an interesting day. I was ill last week, like I mentioned in my posts, and this was the first Finnish class I had in a while. We were supposed to pay for some theatre tickets. I almost forgot the money but my mom brought me to school and so no harm done. After my school day I went home, ate, did homework, showerd and went to sleep. I know, it's very weird. But I had a great plan. We were going to see the Hobbit- movie and it came on Wednesday at 00.02. My plan was so sleep from 6 pm to about 10 pm and pack and go to the cinema. My plan was very successful. I arrived at about half 11 pm. Maybe a bit earlier. I didn't look at the watch. Then we waited and all until...

...the movie started! Omg, I can't say anything about it (no spoilers) but it's was better than the first. Now I can't wait for the next one. It's so unfair that we have to wait a YEAR!! No! I'm already so excited. The movie was just amazing. I did get scared and I don't really like to get scared but it's was really okay. We were laughing and screaming and clapping and it was a great night. After the movie (did I already say it was amazing?) we all (we were six btw) jump on Miri's car, drove two other to one place and the other  four (which included me) drove to Miri's place. We went to sleep after 3 am, it was probably even later than that. Waking at up at seven was kinda hard but we made it. Miri drove us to school and after that she left to the airport. She just left me here in the cold dark Finland :(. 

  I didn't really have too much trouble staying awake and listening in classes. That sleeping from 6 pm to 10 pm was a really good idea. I actually wanted to go salsa dancing but the class was cancelled because there weren't enough people. After I got home I needed to write an English essay. I chose the title "A very Finnish pastime" and wrote about sauna! I went to sleep at ten because I wanted to watch Grey's Anatomy even tho it was a Halloween special and again, I don't like to get scared. 

Finally today came. We got our exams back from our last exams week. I didn't suck but neither did I do my best. I had threee languages and I am quite okay with the grades I got from Swedish and English but the German grade troubles me. I made so many stupid mistakes that I could've avoided just by reading assignments better. I'm such an idiot sometimes. But I have to admit, it was the last exam, I was so sick of the whole week and just wanted to get out of there. It also took me by suprise how difficult it was for me. After all, German is my second language. I'm slowely getting over it. As a matter of fact I think this makes me just work better.
  I made a few Christmas cards too. They need too me sent soon so I'm doing as many as I can. I could make some ginger bread too!

Enjoy December everyone!

Listen to these:
Justin Bieber- Santa Claus is Coming to Town
Britney Spears- My Only Wish This Year
Pentatonix- Little Drummer Boy
Frank Sinatra- Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas

Monday, 9 December 2013

8th and 9th of December

(This was written yesterday)

Hi there and happy 8th of December!

  Today I went to a Christmas concert. My aunt plays the violin in a orchester and she invited us. It was in a church and started at six. Well, I'm not too sure about how exact that was but it was supposed to start at six. There was a violin soloist. She was 18-years-old and played really wonderfully. Everything runned smoothly and she didn't seem to be too nervous. I could never play the violin in front of an audience. My hand would be so shaky it would sound horrible. But yeah, I really liked it. I would've taken some fotos, I even had my camera but I forgot my memory card. And no memory card means no fotos :( 
Also seeing young talented people playing makes me both sad but at the same time very eager to be a better piano player. Sad, because I'm not so good as I want to be. I mean, I've played piano for what, six years now, and I'd expeced me to be better at it.

  I just realized today that I havent seen pretty much any famous Christmas movies. I've seen the Snowman and I think that's it. How have I missed the others? I love Christmas and all and somehow I haven't seen them. I'm gonna need to have a movie night some day soon. 

Enjoy December everyone!
Melanie Thornton- Wonderful Dream

Listen to this:

(This was written today!)

Hi there and happy 9th of December!

  Apologies for yesterdays lack of post. No excuse this time. Tired, maybe?

  So my day started with a visit at the dentist. I'm not a big fan of the dentist, as I told in my 50 facts about me- post. I'm afrait that I need to have something else done than a check and that scares me so much that it's no problem at all for me to take care of my teeth. I also judge other people by their teeth. They don't have to be perfect, my teeth aren't either, but could you just please take good care of them. For me? Thanx. But yeah, the visit. So my teeth are in a very good shape and nothing big had to be done. Pad on the shoulder there, Silvia. 

  Other than that my day was quite the same as usual. School and then home and eat and then salsa street class. Our teacher was about to start zumba. That's the second time in a row already. But it's fine, stretching is always good. I have to go to sleep now, my head is hurtig. Headache isn't fun. At all. And I should be learning words. 

  Quick note before I go, this week is a very busy week for me so I don't know how much I can post but I'll do my best. You'll find about my week later.

Enjoy December everyone!

Listen to this:
Coldplay- Christmas Lights

Saturday, 7 December 2013

7th of December

Hi there and happy 7th of December.

  I almost did not do this. Wow, what a way to start a post. 

  I did something today that reguired leaving home! My mom needed something from Ikea and I went with her.  Something that I hate about going to Ikea is the fact that it is so BIG. I mean, you need a few hours there if you don't have anything specific in mind. We didn't buy anything too exciting: candles, a carpet, brithday presents for relatives and such. So then we went to a supermarket and got food. We're gonna make fish tomorrow! So what did we do next. Oh yes, my mom needed something that I can't explain and we we're hunting that. I also wanted to find a Moomin- themed card for a friend of mine from Germany. I didn't find anything that I liked so I didn't get anything. Lastly we went to a café. My mom and I both felt like it wasn't really comfortable like cafés usually are. It just felt odd so be honest. We left quite quick after eating something salty. 

  At home I then made ginger bread. I think they are called ginger bread, not too sure so correct me if I'm wrong. They turned out very good. I've don't like to do the dough myself 'cause it's a long process so we bought a ready-made-dough. Anyone can do these.

  We have snow. On the ground. Finally. But I don't know how long it'll stay there because it's probably soon getting warmer again. I still hope we're gonna have a White Christmas. 

Enjoy December everyone!

P.S. Pics will be added tomorrow. 

Listen to this (it's one of my favourites Christmas songs ever):
Backstreet Boys- It's Christmas Time Again

Friday, 6 December 2013

6th of December

Hi there and happy 6th of December and most importantly Happy Independence Day Finland!

  Okay, if you know me this next thing is going to shock you but I woke up a little bit before twelve.  It's crazy. I mean, I've been ill the past three days and I've slept half the time I've been home and now I wake up a little bit before twelve? How? 

  As I said yesterday, I was baking today. I don't really know what these things are called in English so I'm just gonna call them Christmas-thingys. Unfortunately they were a bit too long in the oven but that doesn't really matter. They tasted really good which you can tell by the fact that they are already gone. I also went and found our Christmas decoration but our house needs to be spotless before I put them all up. So that's my new project together with a puzzle I've been trying to put up since June.

  Soon we need to send our cards so I've been making them as much as I can. One card is not in the pictures since I'm waiting for it to dry and it's not finished yet.  I've been planning to make some 20 cards maybe more if necessary.

Enjoy December everyone!

Listen to this:
Finland National Anthem- Maamme laulu

Also, you need to watch this. It has nothing to do with December but it's awesome:
Miss Jay- About Finland

Thursday, 5 December 2013

(4th) 5th of December

Hi there and happy 5th of December!

  I'm so sorry I didn't write anything yesterday. I was really tired because of the illness and then I went to take a nap at about eight o'clock and woke up the next day. But I'm back again today :) Let me just say this: Happy (late) 4th of December!

  I've been home today too. My mom thought it is better for me to rest real good. I kinda wanted to go but my mom is right. I did go to piano class since it was the last one this year. 

  I didn't do anything interesting today either. I don't really know (yet) why I decided to do blogmas. I don't really do anything. Maybe I'll come up with something so it's not all about my boring everyday life. Hopefully I have something better to write soon :)
But I was about to tell about my day. I woke up at six because of a friend who texted me and then I stayed up for like an hour or so. After that I then went back to sleep. The only good thing about having to stay at home is that you can sleep. I woke up again around ten o'clock and eventually got out of bed too. After breakfast I made two Christmas cards (which you can see under). I have been listening to Christmas songs so much today too! I just love them! And I've been dancing arounf ofc. Now I'm just sitting on my computer. An average day I'd say. 

  I have planned to bake something tomorrow. And decorate our house! Can't forget that. I'm already excited for tomorrow. Now that I said that, I don't know what else to say anymore... I need to do more stuff. Bye. 

  Enjoy December everyone!

Listen to this:
Simple Plan- My Christmas List live 

Tuesday, 3 December 2013

3rd of December

Hi there and happy 3rd of December!

  So I am ill. Great. 

I don't even know what happened. This morning I woke up with a terrible headache and stayed home. The headache unfortunatly didn't dissapear, not even after sleeping. I then thought of watch a few episodes of Glee. Can't say that was the best idea ever. My headache got worse and suddenly I felt really really cold. I also felt really weak and holding a glass of water in my hand was hard. I measured my temperature and realized my fever was quite high. Which isn't nice. Or wasn't. It's lower now and I feel a lot better. I won't go to school tomorrow but maybe on Thursday. We'll see. 

  This is the first time I have been home on a school day since going to the upper secondary school. I'm worried that they will do a lot at school and I will have a lot to catch up. I am glad though that I am ill now. Next week I'm gonna go watch the new Hobbit movie and a week after that we'll have your musical. My character is a little girl and quite important (even tho I say so myself) so it wouldn't be too nice to be ill.

  Since I have spent a lot of time in bed today I haven't done anything. Literally. I was going to be a very good student and study but it's quite hard with a terrible headache. Now that it's gone, I feel lazy. I almost didn't write this post either. Not good. Hopefully tomorrow will be a productive day.

  I'm really sorry that this post ist just rubbish. I've been sleeping, watching Glee, drinking tea and complaining about how I feel. I don't even want to go and take fotos for you to enjoy. Maybe I'll add some tomorrow then.

Enjoy December everyone!

Listen to this:
Train- Shake up Christmas

Monday, 2 December 2013

2nd of December

Hi there and happy 2nd of December!

  You can't belive how long I was wondering how you write second in numbers. Hello, yes,  like to think my English is good. Sometimes. 

  Today hadn't been too interesting. Monday means school. I had okay lessons, not complaining. How about I tell you about them. So first, English. I find English as a subject quite easy really. I mean I make mistakes like crazy but that's how you learn. I love speaking English. Have I ever told you that my English is very British. I don't know how it happened but I don't care. I love it. 
Then I had Spanish. Now, I have had one course of Spanish and trust me on this, I don't remember anything. Like Hola is literally all I can pronounce and write correctly. Jeez, it's difficult. Our teacher was speaking Spanish and I didn't understand ANYTHING! 
We had lunch which is the most boring part of my day. The food was okay. After lunch I had biology. Our teacher never manages to start and finnish one whole in 75 minutes. Never. But it's fine, this is my second course with her so I'm already used to it. 
Last but not least I had maths. Me and maths have a really difficult relationship. One day I like it because I understand something and suddenly I hate it and I feel like crying or yelling (or both). It's sooo annoying. 

  So then I went home, ate something and went to salsa street- lesson. The best hour of my monday. Our dance instuctor first thought we had zumba and his expression after one lady told her that we have salsa street was priceless. All in all it was a nice lesson. Loved the choreoraphy and the music. Dancing always puts a smile on my face. I don't understand how someone can leave a dance studio with a frown. 

  My day hasn't been very christmassy or exciting today. I did make a card which you can see down below. And I maybe should play some songs on the piano too. So that I learn something. But first, homework. 

  Enjoy December everyone!

Listen to this:
Wham!- Last Christmas

Sunday, 1 December 2013

1st of December

Hi there and happy First of December!

  Christmas is getting closer and I thought that since I haven't been a very active, I could write about my December days. Just writing stuff about me getting ready to the holiday season and enjoying the holiday season.

  Now I love December. However this year has been quite a dissapointment really. There has not really been cold and there is no snow on the ground :). I'm still hoping for it to come any day soon. 
  I love being home in warm, cosy clothes, watch a movie and chill out. I love shopping for presents and I love wraping them. I love Christmas lights and now is also the time to burn candles like you've never burned any before. I love making my own Christmas cards and then sending them to someone. I love baking Christmas goods. I love listening to Christmas songs and maybe even playing some myself. And I escpecially love spending time with my family and getting in a real Christmas mood.
  Even tho today was the first advent I didn't go anything too christmassy. I was coming home from Tampere with few friends. We were listening to the Christmas radio for some time but then got bored. Or I did anyway. We also had brought with us a bottle of coke which we should've shared with Santa Claus but sadly he wasn't anywhere to be found. 
  That pretty much wraps my day. Enjoy December everyone! 

Listen to this:
Jingle Bell Rock- Glee version

Thursday, 17 October 2013

Up All Night (kinda)

Hi there!

  I know, I know, I haven't written in AGES and I'm so sorry. I could tell you all kind of reasons like school and stuff, but to be very honest, I have just been lazy. Sorryy...

 Last week's Thursday was an interesting evening and the following night was ...even more interesting. We had this "nightschool" thingy where people stay over night at school. So it's like having a sleep-over with all your school mates =). 
Let me just tell you exactly what happened...or at least what I remember. Wow, that makes me sound like I was drunk... No, I wasn't, not one bit. I was just soooooo tired.

  Thursday was a normal school day from 8.15am  to 2.30pm. After that I was in a meeting until 4pm. I would've been there longer but I needed to pack my stuff and go take a shower before coming back to school for the nightschool. I went home and of course there was a horrible traffic. Because of that, I was home around 5pm. Great. I luckily didn't have my piano lesson. I rushed to the shower and tried to shower as fast as possible. And after putting clothes on I was literally running around my house trying to find everything I needed: Friday's school books, sleeping bag, tooth brush ect. It was crazy. And at some point I even managed to blow dry my hair. But quess what. I was ready on time. Nightschool started at 7pm and I was ready to leave home 6pm (I needed buy food so that's why). My mom however decided that she has to do something right then and because she was kind enough to give me a ride I had no other option than to wait. Eventually we left home about 30 min. later. It was okay. I wasn't at school 7pm but who really cares. I wasn't the only one coming later. I left all my stuff in the same place as everyone else and then I was ready to do stuff! I don't remember what we did first (dancing the Macarena maybe o.O) but I think in the beginning somewhere we made groups. And then we were going around the school in those groups and did all kinds of things. We were compiting agains other teams and we all had a great time. So we did this for a few hours. Then..wait did we eat or did we dance and play games?...I don't know anymore. But we did eat at one point and we did dance and play games at one point. The last arranged thing was Amazing Race. We, as groups, were again compiting against others. I have to say we sucked. Sorry team. I think we won like maybe once. But the winners got only sweets so I'm not jealous. Then we had free time. It was o'clock I wanna say. We didn't do anything special. I went to sleep around 3am but my sleeping was more like half asleep-half awake kind of sleep. I know that there were people talking but I don't know what they were saying. And after that oh so good sleep, we were woken up 6.15am. I live freaking 18 kilometres away from my school and I wake up at 6.30am. Now that I was in school and have slept less than I ever should, I really didn't understand why on earth I needed to wake up at 6.15. And before anyone says anything, those 15 minutes make all the difference. So then we had a normal school day ahead which I didn't enjoy one bit. 

  Now you know what I did last week. My sleeping schedule is still messed up and it's been a WEEK! But it was worth it.
So yeah, I suck at staying up all night. Probably never have, probably never will. But still I do have some tips that help me to stay up for a longer time and I'm gonna share these with you today.

1. Do something the whole time. If I'm tired and I sit down and do nothing, I will fall asleep. So by keeping yourself busy, you don't want to fall asleep 'cause you need to do something. Easy.
2. Keep talking. Staying up all night is no fun if you don't have anyone to chat to. So find a friend and just talk the night through. Plus, you can make a deal with him/her/them: if someone falls asleep, the other(s) can wake him or her up again.
3. Food. I know eating late at night isn't so good for you, but it gives energy and energy means being more awake.
4. I don't often do this myself, but drink something with caffeine, for example coffee. Reason I don't do this is because I'm simply just so caffeine sensitive that I go literally crazy. Like seriously crazy.
5. Listen to music and sing along.
I wanna stay up all night
And jump around until we see the sun
I wanna stay up all night
And find a girl and tell her she's the one
Hold on to the feeling
And don't let it go
'Cause we got the floor now
Get out of control
I wanna stay up all night
And do it all with you

Up, up, up all night
 6. Play something. A few rounds of truth and dare is going to lift moods...or make everyone laugh. Either way, it's fun and it keeps you awake. Just don't dare anyone to sleep. Or jump of the roof.
7. Just have fun. No one wants to fall asleep when you are having the time of your life. Have fun, party, get crazy but don't overdo it.

  Until next time (which hopefully will be next week). Take care!

Tuesday, 1 October 2013

Autumn Again

Hi there!

  It's that time of the year when everything turns very colourful and nights get chilly. It is also my favourite season of the year. So get yourself a nice up of tea (or coffee if you like) and enjoy these pictures. Enjoy!

“Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower.”
― Albert Camus

 “I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.”
― L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables

 “Fall has always been my favorite season. The time when everything bursts with its last beauty, as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale.”
― Lauren DeStefano, Wither

“Autumn...the year's last, loveliest smile.”
― William Cullen Bryant

“Love the trees until their leaves fall off, then encourage them to try again next year.”
― Chad Sugg

“Autumn is as joyful and sweet as an untimely end.”
― Remy de Gourmont

 “Give me juicy autumnal fruit, ripe and red from the orchard.”
― Walt Whitman

 “I ate breakfast in the kitchen by candle-light, and then drove the five miles to the station through the most glorious October colouring. The sun came up on the way, and the swamp maples and dogwood glowed crimson and orange and the stone walls and cornfields sparkled with hoar frost; the air was keen and clear and full of promise. I knew something was going to happen. ”
― Jean Webster, Daddy-Long-Legs

Until next time. Take Care!

 These pictures are from last year. I have been sooooo busy with school that I haven't even had a chance to go outside with my camera. Not only that, I haven't even had time to post anything in TWO WEEKS!! What is wrong with me? 

Also, quotes can be found here

Friday, 13 September 2013

What's Going On?: Diploma and TJ100

Hi there!

  Just a quick introduction here. "What's Going On?:..." is gonna be just reports from what has happend in my life. Like a diary. And also it helps me to write just whatever and have a cool title in it =)

  So a few weeks earlier on the 29th of August I had went to the German Embassy in Helsinki. I was going to receive a German- diploma. My dad was kind enough to give me a ride and stay with me. It suprised me how many people im Finland were there to also recieve this diploma. First there were some nice words spoken, then a student played a quite long piano piece (which was pretty damn awesome may I just add) and then we got the diplomas. And then it was time to eat. Altogether it lasted for about +/- 3 hours. In the near future I hope to get the second part of the diploma done. The reason why is that with this I have the possibility to study in Germany. That would be a dream.

  TJ100 is a "party" in our school. The 3rd graders (just to clarify, there are basically only 3 grades in the Finnish Upper Secondary School, I am currently in the 1st and the 3rd graders are the oldest) have only 100 days of school left and they celebrate it. They have a theme, they dress up and they are allowed to paint our faces full with lipstick, they can capture us and just mess around all day. Also they are kind of revenging on us what they went through on TJ100 when they were 1st or 2nd graders. They also have a "black list" and I was in it. Fun fun fun. Sum everything up: The oldest of the school act stupid and mess around because they have only 100 days of school left (see what I did there, I am revenging). But seriously, if you don't take it as a joke, then you are crazy.

  Okay, that explanation is as stupid as that day but yeah. Anyway, if you follow me on twitter you might have already seen what I looked like when I got home.

  I want to point out that I had eyeliner, lipstick and some kid of an creme eyeshadow in places where they don't belong. And then I had glitter all over my back and hair. The glitter was a really mean trick, it was really hard to get off. And because of all the makeup my face was full of new pimples. Like I don't stuggle with acne enough...

  Later that evening I was going to see a theatre piece. It was...interesting I quess. I was not prepared for it. There was some yelling, a naked scene and they also spoke partly Swedish.

  This week has been horrible. I've been extra busy with school that I am totally exhausted. My test week is going to be in two weeks so I can't really chill on the weekends either. I just hope that next week will be a bit easier as I don't have so much extra to do.

Until next time! Take care!

Sunday, 8 September 2013

My Story | Bullying

Bullying is always wrong!

//Hi there!

  A little note before getting into the actual story: you may or may have not read this story already in Finnish, but I just wanted to translate this. That's all. And also, sorry about my lack of posts, just been busy with school...//

  Bullying is always a serious thing. It can start from a little thing and end up even with a suicide. People are different and the way they react to something is also different. Saying something rude and not actually meaning it can really hurt. I myself have been bullied on the 3rd grade. Even tho it happened so long ago, it still affects me. This is my story.

It begun from a small thing: the bullies mocked my simple beanie. It wasn't a weird one, many people before me have been wearing the same kind of beanie. Sure, it maybe wasn't the cutest or the most beautiful beanie ever, but it was warm and comfortable. I really liked it. Something like the beanie in the picture there, but it was white. There was nothing wrong with it. But that was the reason it all started. And why did they bully me then? That's something I'd like to know too. Maybe I was just an easy target...

  I didn't know the people who bullied me. They were from the Secondary School, way older than me. First it was just calling names. I remember them saying that I looked like an "ugly little baby" and that they just couldn't understand why my mother would even let me wear something horrible like that. They said something else too, but let's not get too into that. Oh, and "they" were two girls. The others around the girls were just laughing at what the girls said, making me feel bad. 
  But then it got worse. It wasn't just calling names anymore. The girls got to me, took my beanie, threw it to each other and laughed. I tried to change my beanie, it didn't work. They always found something else: my shoes, my backpack ect. And it just continued. Sometimes I said something. They didn't listen. Just laughed and continued. I was afraid to tell anyone about the bullying. I was just too afraid that it would get worse than it already was. I wanted to stop school. So for a week or so I pretended to be ill. And then my mom realized that something wasn't quite right. Eventully I told my mother what was happening. She promised she'd help. 
  The next week I went to school, feeling better. But nothing changed. I was still bullied and I still pretended to be ill and stayed at home.My mom was trying her best to help me.
  The next adult I told about being bullied was our school nurse. I spent time with her probably half of the time I was at school. I talked and talked and talked. She tried to make a change. She talked to my classteacher and most importantly to my mother. So at school I was talking to the nurse and at home to my mother. At one point I needed to go to see my classteacher. She gave me a file with pictures in it and told me to point out the ones who bullied me. It wasn't possible because there wasn't pictures from the ones who actually did it. So I just pointed out people, who I thought had looked at me mean or who seemed like bullies. These people ended up having "the talk" and of course denied it, which wasn't too big of a suprise. As for the bullying, it never stopped. My teacher thought everything had cleared out.

  The next time my teacher heard I was bullied, I was called to the principal's office. There I told, crying, the same thing I already had told a million times: I didn't know my bullies and it only got worse and worse. The principal, like my classteacher, never really believed me. They put someone to follow me during breaks and again they thought that the problem was solved. But it didn't help. I was bullied before and after school hours. So the ones who were supposed to follow me and stop the bullying never got a change to do something about it.
  My mom was in a meeting with the schoo nurse, my classteacher and the principal. The result was following: I just simply wanted attention and I was lying about being bullied. Our principal had pointed out to my mom: "There is NO bullying in OUR school". Yeah right. So nothing else was done and I got the reputation of a liar. 

  The bullying lasted the complete 3rd grade. It was always the two girls and their friends who laughed. I was away from school at least two to three months because I was afraid to go there. A great school year...
  4th grade was a bit better, but I was very careful and an outsider. The scars were so deep that I still didn't enjoy being in school and while I was there I was pretending to be someone I wasn't. On the 5th grade I got friends and they learned a new side of me. On the 6th grade I seemed okay- inside I was still stuggling.
  On the 3rd grade I cried a lot, on the 4th I often cried myself to sleep, as well as in the 5th too. The 6th grade was better than the three before- I had good, but occasionally bad moments. But I survived. 

  Secondary School started and I was afraid I'm gonna be alone. Some of my good friends had changed class or even schools. Somehow I found myself with new people around, guys mainly. Everyday I was spending more and more time with them. I could say we were friends. I even had a crush on one. So my Lower Secondary School went by nice and fast. I wouldn't have made it through without these guys. You guys saved me, thank you =)

So I quess what i wanted to say here is that bullying is always wrong. It can start from something small and cut someone deeply. And as I said in the beginning, it still accects me. I don't have a huge friendgroup, but the friends I have are close to me. I am reserved and careful because I don't want to get hurt. But I am still me and I am okay. That's all that matter.

  For all the bullies out there, shame on you! No one deserves to be bullied. And for all the people who are bullied: hang in there and talk about it. You are beautiful, you are great and you are you.  Always remember that.

  Hope you all have a wonderful bullying-free week ahed of you. 
Until next time. Take care!



Pictures: Google- search: "Bullying is wrong" and the beanie: click here

Saturday, 24 August 2013

50 Facts about Me

Hi there!

  I was planning to post something else this week but I'm still not done writing it. I then decided to do the 50 facts about me which many many people before me have already done. So I hope that you like my 50 facts and I will try to get that post posted next week =) 

1. I don't have a second name. Silvia is the only name I've got. Some people are like "what, how can you not have a second name?" and some "that's so good, I mean what are you even doing with a second name". Yeah, and some don't even care. 

2. I was born 1 minute after midnight which makes my birthday 16th of January.

3. I am bilingual. I have two native languages: Finnish and German.

4. My favourite subjects at school have always been languages. I am currently learning 5 languages (Finnish, German, English, Swedish and I've also taken up Spanish). 

5. I have a brother who is two years older than me. 

6. I love visiting new places, learning more about other cultures and maybe even getting to know people from other countires. These are all reasons why I love travelling so much. Too bad it's so expensive.

7. I hate my own handwriting so much that I always try to change it. Still I am never pleased with it.

8. I'm trying to keep Saturdays school-work-free. I'm already putting so much effort into school that I really should have a day off from all of that. Can't really say it has always been working...

9. I get very easily frustrated when my room is messy and that's why I like to keep it clean.

10. I am a perfectionist. It's not always good. It pushes me to get the results I want but sometimes I just over-estimate my abilitys and get mad at myself for not being good enough.

11. I am extremly clumsy. I am bumping into things, losing stuff and dropping and usually breaking everything.  

12. I love, love, LOVE cooking and baking. I don't even know how many apple pies I have already made this year...

13.  I hate favourite questions. I can never decide! However...

14. favourite colour is green, my favourite ice cream flavour is vanille and my favourite season is autumn.

15. I like polished nails and my nails usually have some kind of colour but I hate that you need to wait so long for the nail polish to dry.

16. I am buying lipbalms and handcreams way too much. I think that in every single handbag that I own I would find a lipbalm.

17. I've never really been into dresses, skirts or high heels but somehow this year I have already bought two dresses and a pair of high heels. I'm getting girlier every day!

18. I'm 165 cm tall (about 5'4) and I really like it.

19. I've never broken a bone in my body but...

20. ...I do have a knee sport injury from a school baseball match and it's gonna be there forever

21. I play the piano but I wish I was better at it. Also...

22. ...I have performed a few times in front of an audience and it is always very horrible. The night before I can't sleep and I might even feel a bit sick. Then when the performance gets closer and closer I get really nervous, I get quiet and my palms start to get sweaty. And then when I have to start playing my hands are shaking which makes playing even harder and my face turns red. If I make a mistake my hand are shaking even more and my cheecks flush bright  red. I just don't like performing... 

23. I am rubbish at staying up all night. I haven't even done that, not even once.

24. My favourite type of roses are those really intense dark red.

25. When I really like a song, I will play it on repeat until I don't like the song anymore.

26. I have a phobia of needels. I don't know when it happened or how it developed but now it's there. This is the reason I don't like (and am afraid of) vaccinations. 

27. I am totally useless in texting or calling people back. I feel awkward talking on the phone in public and I really do forget to just answer a text. It must drive people mental. I'm so sorry.

28. If you cry, I will feel horrible and maybe even cry with you even though I am fine.

29. Speaking of crying...I am a very ugly cryer and I try to do my best not to cry in the cinema or somewhere public.

30. I don't like the dentist and that's why I take good care of my teeth. Even the thought of having something bigger then a check done makes me wanna run and hide for the rest of my life.

31. I can't watch scary movies alone. They are just too scary. I need someone to cuddle up to and tell me that everythings gonna be alright.

32. When I sleep I have to have my blanked on. No matter how hot it is, I need to have it on. To me it can protect me from bullets and monsters.

33. I like my tea without anything. I can't understand people who put milk or sugar in their tea. If I need to sweeten my tea, I will but honey in it, nothing else.

34. I don't like the smell of cheese but I do like to eat it. 

35. When I get nervous I either way go really shy or talk like no tomorrow. Both situations usually get very awkward. 

36. I can't sew very well and I can't knit.

37. My earliest memory is from Germany. My uncle and aunt had this bathroom where you had to lock the door with a key. I needed to go to the bathroom,I locked the door and when I was done and about to unclock the door, the key fell on the floor. Me, being very young and foolish, couldn't get it back to the lock and then I started to panic. I was yelling and crying SOO hard. My family was trying to tell me how to get the key to the lock but I couldn't do it and then I started to cry and yell even more and it was just horrible. Eventually they got the door open, I don't know how, and they found me on the carpet fast asleep. I was so exhausted from yelling and crying that I managed to actually fall asleep. Now every time we go to my uncle and aunt's house I will hear about this. 

38. I'm easily affected by sugar and/or caffeine. If I have either one of those or both together I am literally going crazy. 

39. People who are always late really really really annoy me. I get that sometimes you just are late, it's part of being human but don't do that often, please. I myself like to be on time and I expect you to be one time too.

40. I have a massive sweet tooth and I like everything sweet like biscuits and cupcakes and sweeties etc.

41. The only concert I've ever been to was this year and it was the Adam Lambert concert! 

42. I don't want to stay in Finland. I hope to one day live abroad.

43. I love photographing and I am planning to enter a photographing course somewhere in the near future.

44. Even though I am very staight myself, yes, I am a big beliver in legalizing same-sex marriages. #EgualityRocks

45. I have a hard time answering the easiest things. Like if you ask me what flavour ice cream I want, I'm just gonna be there like ummmmmmmmmmm...(and end up taking vanille btw). Also on tests I have a hard time getting right the easiest questions. 

46. I am allergic to nuts. 

47. I love the smell of peppermint.

48. I'm 16 and I still run up the stairs when it is dark because I think there are monsters chasing after me. 

49. I honestly think there is something wrong in my head or my brain. For the longest time I've been really good at school and I learned easily but since the 9th grade I feel like I need to study harder to get the same results as before. Somehow the things just don't stay on my mind or I don't get them.

50. I am really all about the little things in life. I just believe that there is something good in every day. And I also believe that if you can't do the little things in life right, you can't do the bigger things in life right. Also the little things are the cutest in a person and makes you...well, you (isn't that right 1D?)

  So I hope you enjoyed reading my 50 facts. And that's all I have to say.
Until next time. Take care!

Saturday, 17 August 2013

Baby Silvia

Hi there =)

  You've seen the title and you (maybe) know what this is all about. First I just wanted to write a little bit about what has happened. School, would be the answer. So I started my first year in Upper Secondary School (or High School or Sixth Form College, whatever you'd like to call it) and it has been quite something. Miri (my bff) is there, two grades higher than me so I kind of don't know anyone. I've met a lot of people and hopefully we'll become really good friends real fast. So good so far. The teachers are nice and know what they are doing. I have already a problem with my timetable but I'm gonna do my best to make it work. So yeah, that's it. Now to the actual post.

  If you read my blog you might know that me and my mom have been cleaning up. During that cleaning we found a massive amount of fotos. There where so many that I have now two foto albums. Here I'm going to show some of the fotos and tell stories about my childhood. 

First ever foto!

Awww, look at me! I don't know how old I am but I can't be that old here. Needles to say I have absolutely no memory of this. Seeing myself so, it's almost unbelievable. I was 47 cm tall when I was born, if I'm not mistaken, and now I am 165 cm. That's quite a difference.
You'll notice that there are quite some fotos about me and my brother here. And even more in those two foto albums that I now own. He was always very kind to me and played nicely with me so we became very attached to each other. 

Here I am learning how to swim. I liked swimming and still do. I was thinking of going to the rescue swimming course but I haven't thought that through yet. But yeah, there I am, swimming in my red swimsuit like a boss =)
Happy child! My childhood was full of joy and happiness.
See how close we are? My brother learned the way I was fed and used it himself. There is another foto of him feeding me food but I think one is enough to show here =) I think we have always had a good brother-sister relationship. Sure, we have had our shares of fights and occasionally he gets to my nerves but that is very normal.
Zorro and ummm...a Mouse from Disney (female version of Mickey Mouse I quess). This is one of  my favourite (if not my favourite) picture of me and my brother. Look how cute we were! I think this was taken at a birthday party. 
I named this foto "I love you daddy!". I don't know if you can tell but I'm hugging my dad there. So my dad is the tall person, my brother sits next to him on the left and little me is the one on the right. I have no idea where this picture was taken, maybe somewhere in Germany.

Proof that me and my brother have helped to paint our house! Honestly I don't think we did too good but hey, it's the effort and trying that counts. When I saw this picture I was thinking "Man, I'd like to be able to remember that". Unfortunately I don't but this foto really brings a smile on my face.
Also, me and my brother have been doing so much stuff together... =)
A little Cover Girl- shot there. I'm not even looking that the camera and it looks so cute (even tho I say so myself)
Moomins was one of my favourite thing growing up so maybe it is a good thing that I live in the same city as the Moomins. Moomieworld was one of every summers highlight. Later after I grew up we visited Väski quite often which is a pirate island. Here I am shaking hands with Snork Maiden. Something that really catches my eye is my hair. That kinda half updo -thingy was my thing. My mom said she'd often but my hair like that and that I liked it.

That's it for this weeks post. I'm now going to drink my tea and wonder about my future. 
Until next time. Take care!

Thursday, 8 August 2013

8th of August

Got a bit too excited... xD
Hi there!

  It is the 8th of August today here where I live at this very moment. Every year this day I'm celebrating my Name day! It's not a very BIG and exciting day really but it brings a smile on my face every year. I remember when I was younger it was very similar to my birthday. We would have people visiting and I would get gifts. Oh those memories... Nowadays it's more like my own party. This year as a part of my own celebration I am going to write about my name (as if I'm not weird enough). 

  I'm gonna start from the very beginning when I was born. I asked my mom about this (thanks mom, btw) and she said that I was given this name because my parents needed a name that is written and pronounced the same in Finnish and German. I do however need to point out that if you look in the Finnish calendar you won't find the name Silvia anywhere. Rude, isn'it it? But basically it's pronounced the same. I can't really say that written because many people in Finland write my name wrong (if not my first then my last name).

  A little point here, I seriously have only one name. I am only Silvia. I don't have a second or third name (how could I have a third name if I don't even have a second one...way to think Silvia, way to think). Just Silvia Goller. Sometimes I do wish I had a second name but I'm okay with just one. Some of my friends found it weird when I told them that I don't have a second name.

  I really like my name (that's good 'cause it's the only one I've got =D). I think it's very beautiful and not a very usual name, at least not in Finland. It's a bit more common in Germany. I can't even recall all the times people have written my name wrong. If I look in my calendar I will find the names Sylvi, Silva and Sylvia. No Silvia there. Urgh!! If  someone has a calendar where there is the name Silvia in it (before you write it in youself), let me know. Because there is no Silvia anywhere to be found, my name can be written wrong. Some people are nice enough to ask how to write my name  if they are not sure. See if people write my name wrong I am usually Sylvia, a y instead of an i. This mistake however happens more under elderly people. Maybe it's because they are not used to names from different countries or they know someone whose name is Sylvia or something. I don't know. But don't let that fool you, there are adults and youngsters that write my name wrong too. I have also been Silvie before.

  I also like my last name. As you can quess, it is not a very common last name in Finland. I've never come across a person whose last name is Goller here...besides my family. To be honest, I haven't met anyone with that last name in Germany either (besides my family there). Goller is a more of a German last name so people in Finland have trouble writing it. For example: Let's pretend I am making an appointment to the hairdresser's and she/he asks for my name. My first name is the easy part. That is written correctly, mainly because I myself pronounce it very clearly Silvia so that it can't be mistaken as Sylvia. Then comes my last name. I say it and then add that it's written with a G. And after that hopefully she/he understood how to write it. So simple. Why G? Why do I need to add that? I have come to the conclusion that it's because Finns are not used to German last names that start with a G (or German last names at all for that matter). So it's quite normal to think that they think it's written with a K. Sometimes people think that it is a very exotic name and write it with a C. Sometimes the o becomes ö. 

  Before I go, I wanted to add this. I went to and found out that my name comes from a Latin word for forest and that its meaning is spirit of the wood. No wonder I like green and the forest so much xD In Roman mythology, Silvia is the goddess of the forest and the moon. It so happens that I enjoy watching the moon, especially the full moon. Now I can tell everyone that in Roman mythology I am a goddess. Cheers for that!

  So that about it then. Hope you enjoyed the story of my name.
Until next time. Take care!
    p.s. This post is not in anyway supposed to be offensive and I am not making this to embarrass anyone who has ever written my name wrong. My name is not a very usual name, I get it. I just thought I might share this part of my life to you and maybe in the future after reading this people know how to write my name =)