Friday, 25 December 2015

Festive Home Decoration | Christmas 2015

Hello and merry Christmas! 


   I still have a lot of chocolate to eat, Christmas films to watch and a book to read so I won't be spending too much time writing in today's blog post (surely you don't mind). I just wanted to quickly say merry Christmas to everyone. I hope you are all having a wonderful time!





Happy Holidays! Until next time! Take care!
-Silvia

Monday, 23 November 2015

Life's Too Short

Hello!

  I had a major realisation the other day that life is so very short! I don't know where it came from. I was just sat in my room looking outside the window and it hit me like a ton of bricks. There are many things in life that take time to achieve but there are millions of things, big and small, we could do in a matter of seconds but those things are the ones we don't do. For example, when was the last time you told your parents you love them?

  About three weeks ago I drew a timeline of my own life. I wrote down the things I had achieved in my almost 19 years of living on this planet and the things I still wanted to achieve. It really got me thinking. We very often just think about those things that are yet to come and don't stop to look back on the things that are completed. It's good to keep looking forward and get excited about the things that are coming but we shouldn't forget what we've learned and achieved in the past. I really do recommend drawing your own timeline, it's very therapeutic and sets your perspective of yourself in a different order.

  One of the things that is massive to me right now is studying. I've had the whole range of emotions about this: I've been dead-set about it, I've been unsure, I've cried and laughed about it, I've been desperate, you name it. During this realisation of life's shortness, I've come to the conclusion that I don't have to have it figured out right now. I'm 18 and I don't have to know what I want to do in 20 years of time. Right now I have an idea of what I want to study and I'm going to go with the flow. If it turns out that the subject I chose when I was 19-years-old, freshly graduated from Upper Secondary School, isn't the thing I want in the end, so what? That's part of the life's brilliance, you have the opportunity to choose and re-choose if necessary.

  Honestly right now, my biggest worries is what I should get my mum for Christmas and needing to study for a few last exams I have. Instead of being in the far future, I need to live my life for what it is now. I'm never going to be this age again, I'm never going to have this day again and life is short. The future will come eventually and for now, it's enough to just have a hunch and dreams.

  So yeah, life's too short. It's too short for dwelling in the past and regretting every mistake you've ever done. You don't know what will be your last day. Life's too short to not do the things you want: go tell your parents you love them, tell your crush you like them, go travel around world. Do the things that you want because life is too shot to not do that.

  Live in this moment and dream big!
Until next time! Take care!
-Silvia


Wednesday, 18 November 2015

Running Blog | Oh no...

Hello!




  I messed up. Big time. In August I was so excited to write about my first long-time goal I achieved but I got so busy with school I hardly had time to do anything else. Including running. I don't even remember the last time I had an actual jog outside.

  I didn't mean to stop running. I found that running was a great way to relieve stress and anxiety but for whatever reason I stopped doing it. I have no excuses. However, this is not the end of the world for me. Sometimes you mess up but getting up and starting over is what counts. So what I have decided is to just start again, even if I have to go back to the beginning. I'll hopefully do better this time.

  I did say that I have no excuses for not running for so long. However, this whole thing started because I got ill. First it was soon after my 5 km run which I was so proud of. I had fever for one day and a terrible headache but it went away. Being as weird as I am I figured it was nothing and went for a run a few days after my fever. Unfortunately I got very badly ill the next week. I think I went back running too soon after that one feverish day. I was about a week ill and after that I had already lost my perfectly working running routine. Oh no...

  I have decided to make a few new changes in my life and running was now one of them. I know it's going great things not only to my physic but also my mental health. I always feel good after a run - not straight away but at least after my shower. Running, as I said before, relives stress and anxiety, helps me to think and I can clear my head of all these thoughts I have had throughout the day. It's great! Never thought I'd say that about long-distance running! 

  I guess the point of this blog post is that it's okay to mess up. I know life can get busy and for someone who hasn't really got a workout routine, or even for someone who does, it's not always easy to stay on track. I have also found out that for me personally running is very challenging and I'm not always in the mood to tackle a challenge so I decide not to. After a few hard days I have then already lost my motivation to actually go and it becomes even harder to go for a run. It'd be so nice to just stay inside and watch netflix all day.

  To anyone who is going (or has gone) through similar situations , don't worry! Just stay positive about it and start slowly again and you'll be up and running (or doing any other type of exercise) in no time! Good luck!



  Until nex time! Take care!
-Silvia







Saturday, 7 November 2015

It's Okay to Not Be Okay

Hello!

  Recently I have had to go through a very difficult period of my life and even though I don't want to get into too much detail about it, I wanted to take time to write something regarding it. To be honest, I'm still processing most of the things that have happened and I'm not sure how I even feel about all the miserable things. What I do know for sure is that I'm not okay.

  In today's society being sad is seen as a failure, a sign of weakness. Everyone is expected to be efficient, caring, smart, happy, basically just master their everyday life - but that's not how life works. As much as we like to think about ourselves as superheroes, everyone goes through ups and downs. Situations change, moods change, and sometimes you just have to take time for yourself and allow yourself to not be okay.

  I'll give you an example. We lost our cat a few days ago and it was absolutely devastating. Most comments we have got when telling this have been very kind. However, we have also got a comment saying that we should just get another cat. A harmless comment, you'd think. It wasn't. It felt as if we weren't allowed to be sad and cry because of what happened. We should've just moved on. Eventually you have to do that but right now, it's hard.

  You cannot hide the things that make you feel unpleasant forever because then you never get to go through them. That is what has happened to be in the past, and I've learned my lesson. There's only so much a person can take before one breaks. Once you break, it will be a million times harder to get out of that. We humans have the ability to feel sadness. The way I see it is that we wouldn't be able to do that if we were not meant to feel sad every now and then.

  There are many ways to get through sad times.Personally, I'm a crier. Crying has proven to be an excellent way for me to express my feeling of sadness, or even other feelings sometimes. There's nothing negative about crying, in fact, it is a very normal reaction to feelings of sadness. Throughout this past weeks I have spend multiple hours just crying. I needed to just let go and cry in order to get it out of my system and start the process of moving forward.

  In many occasions going through sad periods of life is nearly impossible on your own which is why I encourage each and every one reading this to maybe call a friend or talk to your family the next time something difficult happens. Asking for help is both easy and difficult for me. Easy because I trust the people closest to me and I know I can ask for help anytime, Difficult because I often feel like a burden and I'd rather close up and be on my own. Asking for help may be hard but it's brave. And yeah, sometimes being alone is better, and sometimes writing your thoughts down or doing physical exercise on your own is the way to feel better, Bravery is to know when to ask for help.

  I guess what I'm trying to say here is that being sad is healthy - to a certain point. If the feelings of sadness start to drain you mentally or if those feelings won't get better in a matter of weeks or months, I'd advice to, firstly, understand that too much is too much. I'd advice to talk about your feelings to someone you trust. There is a fine line between feeling sad and depression and I have learned that even if you suspect that you crossed that line, go seek professional help. There are people out there who are trained to help you. Use it.

  So, in the words of Jessie J, it's okay to not be okay.
Until next time. Take care!
-Silvia


Jessie J - Who You Are


Thursday, 5 November 2015

Leija





Rakas kissamme Leija jouduttiin lopettamaan 4.11.2015 kello 20.30. Hän oli 10 vuotta vanha. Leijalla todettiin luumuutos oikeassa etukäpälässä, joka viittasi kasvaimeen. Muutama vuosi aikaisemmin kissallamme oli todettu munuaissairaus, jonka takia tulevaisuuden näkymät olivat kovin kehnot. Leijan etukäpälä olisi pitänyt amputoida ja hänen olisi täytynyt käydä läpi rajut kemo- ja radioterapiat. Tiesimme, ettei se olisi sellainen elämän, josta Leija nauttisi enää tai olisi edes halunnut elää. Kissamme oli aina ollut hyvin aktiivinen, juoksi mielellään ulkona lintujen ja hiirien perässä.
  Leija oli todellinen taistelija. Mutta joskus taisteluun kuuluu tieto siitä, milloin tulee päästää irti. Saimme olla Leijan perhe 10 vuotta. Me rakastimme häntä ja olimme hyvin kiintyneitä kissaan. Hän teki meidät pelkällä läsnäolollaan onnelliseksi. Minulle Leija oli muuta kuin vain lemmikki. Hän oli perheenjäsen, ystävä. Hän on nähnyt minun nauravan, ja itkevän. Leija on aina ollut luonani, muttei ole enää. Kaipaan häntä suunnattomasti.

  Lepää rauhassa, rakas kissamme. R.I.P. Leija.





My baby girl Leija was put down on the 4th of November at 20.30. She was 10 years old. Leija had a tumor on her paw and, due to her previous kidney problems, the prognosis was not very positive. She would have had to get her leg amputated and would have had to go through serious kemo- and radiotherapy. We knew it wouldn't be a life worth living for her anymore. Leija was an active cat, always running outside, chasing birds and mice.
  She was a fighter, always. But sometimes even fighting isn't enough. Sometimes letting go is the best way to fight for someone you love. We had her for 10 unforgettable years. We loved her and were very keen on her. For me she was more than just a pet. She was a family member, a friend. She has seen me laugh, and cry. She has always been there for me. And now, she isn't anymore. I miss her terribly but I know it is better this way.

Rest in peace, my love. R.I.P. Leija.


Viimeinen kuva Leijasta. The last picture of Leija. 



Sunday, 1 November 2015

Berlin

Hi there!

A few days ago I came back from my very first trip with my boyfriend. We visited the capital of Germany, Berlin. Although I have been to Berlin before with my family, this trip was very special to me. Not only was this our first trip together (hopefully many more to come, tho), this was my very first trip alone, without anyone who has to take care of me: so no family holiday or school trip. As expected, I was a nervous wreck the week before the trip but now, after coming back, I feel like I want to go somewhere again as soon as possible.

  I have a few hundred pictures taken from the city. I knew I wanted to share some of those here but it was nearly impossible to narrow down the best pictures. There are going to be quite a lot anyway but I do think these are some of the best ones. I hope you enjoy! I certainly did :)

Am Checkpoint Charlie 




Reichstag

Brandenburger Tor


Berliner Dom

Die Mauer am Martin-Gopius-Bau



Mauergedenkstätte

East-Side-Gallery

East-Side-Gallery

Oben im Fernsehturm


Spree am Berliner Dom ©Sami Sihvo

Siegessäule


Gedächtniskirche 

Kaufhaus des Westens (KaDeWe)

Holocaust Mahnmal



Das Konzerthaus

Das Konzerthaus und Französischer Dom 




Im Berliner Dom 

Fernsehturm

Spree am Berliner Dom



I'm so happy I got the change to visit this beautiful city. Until next time, Berlin! Take care!
-Silvia